Damming the Flood

Well, I am home from my week long adventure in Virginia with Grov. It's always a good time when I get to spend time with him. He makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.
I felt kinda bad though. I started to feel sick, (like really sick...he doesn't know how sick I really did feel on Friday...oops...I guess he does now!), and I had migraines a few of the days (again..he doesn't know how bad they were and I probably should have gone to the hospital both times...but I didn't say anything). I didn't want to ruin the time I had with him, and having him sit in an emergency room with me for god knows how long having to deal with my insurance really wouldn't have been my idea of a good time.

I also feel bad because I put so much on him. Even just listening to my problems I feel like I'm burdening him. I know what he's going to tell me "it's what I'm there for" but I still feel really bad. I don't know, I have always been one to just keep my emotions to myself, mainly because I have never had anyone close enough to talk to. And now that I'm with him, it's like it's all come flooding out. I can't help it...it just won't stop. And for some reason, I am getting very emotional about it all. I'm scared that I'm going to flood him so much that he's just not going to listen anymore, because it always seems to be the same problem. So, I've decided that unless it's really important, I'm just going to deal with it and not dump on Grov anymore. He doesn't need it, and I don't want to be the one to ruin a great thing in my life.

On Dec. 21 I fly back down to Virginia again for 2 weeks to spend Christmas and New Year's with Grov. And then on Jan 4, hopefully, he and I will be flying back together.
I guess I'll post about all of that after I get back.