Tired

So here I am, at home, sitting on the computer with the television on in the background for a little noise distraction as I try to entertain myself and the three cats.
As you can probably tell from that last sentence, I don't want to be here right now. It's cold, it was snowing today (nothing significant, but still) and the one I want to be with is about 500 miles south of here, at work and feeling 'like death' as he says.

So do I want to be here taking care of three cats who have me whipped??? Or taking care of the one I love knowing very well that all they really want to do is sleep, sleep and sleep some more because that is what you do when you work a lot and feel like crap. Really...not a hard choice here folks. I'd rather be close to Grov right now, doing whatever I could for him. Helping him out around his place so he could get the rest he needs. Giving him all of my love to show him that he is loved and wanted.

Did I mention that I would be near him? That's the part that is killing me the most. Sure, I see him in the flesh now and again (next Friday will be the next time! Yay!) and I cherish every moment that I have with him on the phone, but that lack of physical contact is very hard emotionally. I'm sure he feels the same way...and I would do anything I could to be near him...and that's the problem...there is always something in the way whenever I do figure out a way to see him. Lack of money is the number 1 thing. Doesn't help that I was recently laid off...and in order to see him more, I cannot go looking for a job at the moment or I won't be able to see him as much as I want to. It's a nice double edge sword right there...and I'm willing to cut myself in the money department, just so I can be with him. He's all that matters to me and if I have to beg, borrow or steal (ok, so I won't steal, but I may just have to beg and borrow from family!) I will.